The Second Hardest thing to do...

Hello Everyone,
    It's been a while since we have posted anything to our blog, but the truth is, there hasn't been anything to tell.  Exciting isn't it 😝. However, recently we have seen a little activity in our journey of adoption, because we were finally chosen to take the next step for a little girl in TN.
   So, we took the next step of getting more information and we went through a phone call with all of her case workers and such.  After the phone call, the team let us know that they would still like to move forward with us.  However, we weren't so sure.  So, we began to pray.
   After much prayer and meditation, we felt like God was not calling us to adopt this child.  So, we had to let her team know that we did not wish to move forward.  This was perhaps the second hardest thing we have experienced in our adoption journey.  The reason it was so hard, is not because we knew that when we said no, we would have to go back to waiting, but instead it was so hard because once we got more information about this child, we knew her history.  We knew how she had been treated.  We heard about the abuse.
     Hearing these things will absolutely break your heart.  But knowing what she has been through and how that has affected her, makes it even harder to say no. After hearing these things you want to desperately love on that child and help them heal.  But God, in his infinite wisdom has not prepared us for her wounds and has not called us to be her parents.  So, it is wise for us to follow God's plan and not our hearts.
    The good news for us is that we know from Psalms 30 that "Joy comes in the Morning."  So yes, we go back to waiting... waiting for our Joy to come in the morning.  But between you, me and the fence post, we believe that our joy may come sooner than later.  But even if it doesn't, we'd rather be in God's will, than in our wants.
     
We love you all and appreciate all of your thoughts and prayers!
In Christ,
Stephen and Sarah